The goodbye of an introvert!
Okay, just a little bit about me! I’m an introvert, as in loner, who thinks that going outside is overrated, who doesn’t like answering a phone call, who prefers to address others by writing over talking to them etc. But, in the last couple of years, it has become a little bit better. I learned to maintain a conversation, to some extend! I learned to play the normal guy as much as I hate everything that has “normal” on it. (Why, than, do I do it? Because this way, you can save some time from wasting, when you actually have to go outside and interact with people). When I’m around no more than three people with whom I’m familiar, I can maintain a more or less normal conversation. True, I often feel the need to throw out jokes or...
Read MoreTorn
Dear God, I know you told us, Not to ask you about tomorrow’s food, Cause you haven’t asked us, About tomorrow’s sins. But I’m looking at this angel sleeping on my arms, And I’m wondering, About tomorrow. I’m torn between so many worlds, My Albanian roots calling, My Japanese life, Asking me to stay. Only yesterday, I flew in through Germany, Where I once grew up, Fleeing from the monstrosities, Taking over the Balkans. God, The day before yesterday, I played with the toes of my high school friend. We were sitting in the park and I just reached to her toes, And discovered a wormhole through time. She’s married now, And I had to assure her, That me reaching down her toes, Didn’t have any erotic hidden meanings! My...
Read MorePrayer of light
I came upon some prayers in my religious readings, mostly from the Islamic and Christian faith. Below I have combined some of these prayers. We, and the whole kingdom, have entered a new day all belonging to Allah. O Allah, begin it for me with obedience to You and end it for me with Your Forgiveness and Good Pleasure. Grant me in it a good deed which You accept from me, purify and double its reward. Any bad deed I do, forgive it for me. Truly, You are Forgiving, Merciful, Kind, and Generous. O Allah, show me the truth as truth and guide me to follow it. Show me the false as false and guide me to avoid it. Guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long. O Lord, my God, help me to trust you with my decisions and...
Read MoreThe J.-magic: A different kind of “tail”!
I was in the dark for too long and at some point, I thought I was already beyond saving. I used to be such a romantic but then life just lost meaning. Yet, today I’m not writing about that. I’m writing about this girl, J. We were in the same class during high school, so many years ago, that it feels like an eternity. She was a close and a dear friend. In the graduation year, our school took us outside the country, for a trip near the sea. In front of our hotel, there was a guy who sold things like lighters, cigars and so on. Among the things he had, I really liked a keyholder, attached to something that appeared to be a squirrel tail. Touching it gave rise to a weird scratchy feeling. I bought it and gave it to J. She was so happy to receive it. It was something...
Read MoreForget me not…
“…Sending you forget me nots To help me to remember…” Patrice Rushen Friday evening. I’m sitting on the gigantic stone wall that faces the sea. The echoes generated by the water waves falling slowly on the wall, reach down my soul. I pull out the green lighter, with a “Peace” cigarette on my mouth. After a couple of tries, the lighter finally produces a beam of fire. It’s the lighter she gave me. I inhale deeply. Yeah. I guess, it’s going to be one of those nights. How long does it take to forget someone? That has been the preferred topic of poets, forever. Personally, I’m unable to forget. Inside me, all the fire repeats itself. In me, nothing is extinct nor forgotten. Like a poem by Neruda. Yet, I have discovered that once I write, I can get over the memory and...
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